Asian man and white women
There might be safety in dependence but your question reflects a need to assert your individuality. At the same time, independence doesn’t need to come at the cost of being alone. If the fear of losing your freedom is your reason for hesitating, have you ever thought about how this fear may be keeping you from being free? That you may truly realize your potential when you feel complete with another? Being aware of the fact that no relationship, like no individual is perfect and that good enough truly is good enough will help you find that compromise which is essential to harmony in a bond.
First of all,relax and be glad that you are living a completely normal life. This happens with all. We crave for the things that we miss in our lives,thats human nature. I think you take your relationship like a burden,just an assumption based on the fact that you search for isolation and peace when you are in a relationship. Maybe you should take it a bit lightly,give your partner their space and have some for yourself too. Enjoy it rather carrying it as a burden. I would recommend you make more friends and eventually you will find some people with whom you speak your heart out without the burden of a relationship. Just relax because this is what growing up is. This is faced by one and all. Best of luck.